Becoming a medium and an energy worker: a retrospective

AI generated image of the inside of
Grand Central station as it looked in
one of my clarivoyance practices.

  My awakening happened about 8 months ago now. It's been an incredible whirlwind since then. I've learned so much, yet I know that I have barely scratched the surface of understanding all of the mysteries of the spiritual world. I have seen and done things that I didn't even know were possible, let alone the fact that I would be gifted with the abilities to do them. Going from being an atheist with a weird sense of haunted places (make that one make sense, lol!) to knowing without a shadow of a doubt that life persists beyond the physical death of the body is quite the change. As a scientist, I firmly believed in energy, and my version of reincarnation was that the matter that makes up the body = energy. E=mc^2 means it can't be created nor destroyed. Therefore, the matter that makes up the body will persist forever in some form. That version of reincarnation made sense to my logical, analytical brain. I was satisfied with that. But when I was contacted telepathically by a recently (as in several hours) deceased relative, my entire worldview was turned on its head. In some sense, perhaps it all has come full circle. As a kid, I believed in reincarnation. Somewhere along the way, life beat that belief out of me, and I adapted the staunch position of matter = immortality. 

A side-by-side comparison of drawings I and Emily made 
of the house she described seeing in her dreams. Note 
the roof line in both drawings. She never described
what the roof looked like. 

Over the course of the past 8 months, I have been made aware of several of my past lives, and I have been privileged to inform many friends and acquaintances about theirs. I was a Druid. I lived as a man in Central America in a society whose way of life centered around aquaculture. I was an ensign on a submarine and perished when the submarine sunk. I was a homesteader named Rebecca, with several children, whose husband worked away a lot of the time. I lived in West Virginia - as a newly transplanted European - who tragically lost her only child (a girl) at the age of 6 and had a husband who died in a logging accident. (as an aside that last one explains so much about my recent feeling like I need to become a transplant to the state). And I fully suspect that I was a native American at some point in one of my past lives, though the details of that life have yet to be revealed. I knew that my daughter Emily had seen visions of a past life of hers when she described in great detail a dream she had about a home she once lived in. A friend texted me somewhat randomly and asked me about why they had this obsession with setting a record straight. You guessed it. It had to do with one of their past lives. Another friend asked about a certain scent they kept detecting - it had to do with one of their guardians who was a mentor and leader for them in one of their past lives. 

    There are so many things that happened to me before I had the words to describe them. Like when I told Emily the sounds she heard in the car would be related to our investigation of Linville Manor. She questioned how I knew that was the case. I just knew. The same way that I knew automatically when she described her 'dream' about a house that it was related to a previous life of hers. Claircognizance, or "clear knowing" is one of the many clairs related to spiritual work, and it is by far my strongest clair. I receive knowledge without ever understanding where it comes from, but it's always correct and true. It's taken me a bit of time to learn to trust it, but enough validation has proven to me that I'm given this information in this manner for a reason. Another example is how my guides began having me practice transmuting energy during meditations. I had no idea that doing so was even a thing, and so when I was told I was meant to transmute energy at Forest Haven, it scared the pants off of me. Turns out that I am meant to not only 'move energy' but to fundamentally change its nature in some cases.

   My first visit to Forest Haven I brought along Tom, a former colleague whom I learned was a gifted spiritualist through a mutual friend. Our trip was the first time I witnessed the opening of a portal and the crossing of souls from the Earth to the spiritual realm. Since then, I have assisted many, many souls make this crossing, both on my own and with others. At first when I was solo I was hesitant - I felt ill-equipped and wanted the assistance of someone more experienced with spirit by my side. As I grew more confident in the gifts I had been given, and also knowing that I never truly do this work alone, I realized that any opportunity to help a spirit transition was a blessing. As the weather turned for the better, my spirit team began calling me to get outside more by hiking. Without a doubt, nearly every time I have been called to go on a hike, there was a spiritual lesson to be learned. Whether it was to interact with a new to me kind of energy, or to help a spirit cross from the Earth to the spiritual realm, there was always a purpose. Recently, I learned that the work I do helping spirits cross is called being a 'rescue medium.' 

    When I was contacted by the relative, I suddenly knew about threads before I knew what threads were. When I described my awakening experience to Tom, he asked me what color the thread was. He said usually the threads are white. The thread from this relative was like a bronze-ish color. In my experience, thread colors are just as varied as energy colors. Perhaps it's my claircognizance, but I'm convinced that every soul has its own thread color. That color isn't fixed - it's related to the condition of the soul's energy at the time of connection - but if it does change, it changes subtly over time. I have witnessed one of the threads I'm connected to shift over time from white to a faint aqua color. It's a subtle shift, but discernible enough to take notice. 

    I've been asked a couple of times what sparked my sudden onset and rapidly expanding gifts from my awakening. My life became chaotic in early 2025. That chaos sparked a deep healing journey in my spirit. I found myself alone and career-less for the first time in over 20 years. I suddenly had time on my hands to recognize all the ways I had hidden parts of myself to maintain the status quo. Having the space and time to recognize how I had been minimizing my own needs in my life gave me the opportunity to forgive myself and heal. Once I began honoring my true spirit, everything started happening rapid-pace. My healing led to my awakening, and in turn my awakening accelerated my healing. I realized my gifts and began to open my mind and spirit to every opportunity to learn about what it was that I am meant to do. Since then, I have traveled through and helped souls in multiple states, from Maryland, to West Virginia, to North Carolina. I have witnessed many spirits, both whom needed help to those that chose to remain. I've seen energy in many forms and transmuted dark energies to light. I've tested my abilities as a form of validation. I've met and learned about my spirit guides. I've been duped by dark energy and learned to understand the depths of my empathy. 

    It has been an incredible 8 months. My ADHD dopamine-driven brain is loving each opportunity to learn something new about the spiritual world. My soul has found its home, and my spirit now soars. In the words of the Carpenters, "We'll start out walking and learn to run, and yes, we've just begun....."