Energy practice: capacity

I had mentioned previously that my spirit guides were taking me through a series of practices with energy work. It's all part of my training as someone who moves energy. Today as I sat down to meditate I noticed the Earth's energy was particularly strong. I had experienced this level of Earth energy before, and the last time it happened, my guides had me practice absorbing the energy and holding it - like recharging a battery. Right off the bat, I was instructed instead to open my chakras wide, let the energy course through my body, and cleanse my chakras. As I was doing this, I immediately began to weep. The last time I felt this I began spontaneously weeping because I was containing the energy and it was trying to leak out. This time was different - there was no containment at first. Instead it was something much more  - I was feeling the pain of Gaia and the collective. I knew that instead of holding this pain, I was meant to feel it, let it run, and let it out - to transmute it if you will. To turn this pain into something much more powerful: love. My heart chakra was pulsing, as it usually does when I'm absorbing energy and turning it into love and light. That's not really the point of this post, but it was worth noting and wanted to capture it. 

Once the initial wave of emotion passed, my guides instructed me once again to close all of my chakras except my feet and crown, and to absorb the energy that was being pushed into my body. Another capacity exercise. There's a reason these exercises happen in stages - too much energy too soon can be overwhelming. This time around, I was able to not only sit longer and absorb more energy, but at first I didn't even really feel the effects of all of that containment. It wasn't until I pushed past my previous level of containment that I began to feel it again. My guides gently instructed me through this process. I was given commands like "keep going," "we want you to sit with it," "don't exhale forcefully - that's your body trying to release the energy," and "that's enough." 

    My body began to react the way I had previously - twitching, the desire to exhale loudly and forcefully, random shaking - when my guides told me that this is meant to not only increase my capacity but my frequency. I was told "this is your body's way of adjusting - it won't hurt you." This time, instead of releasing all of the energy I was storing to build an energy bubble, I was told to open my heart chakra and slowly release some of the energy in a controlled manner. I thought of sending it in a specific direction, but my guides told me it would be too much for any one person to handle, and that I needed to just release it back to the universe. So that's what I did. The rest of the energy I absorbed remains contained within my body. When I opened my eyes I was hit with vertigo. "This is normal, you will get used to it," I was told. I'm still somewhat woozy, and despite not having my morning cup of coffee, I feel like I'm vibrating.